First things first, I love you more then anybody loves you, James comes in second to me. Even though I haven't met or even seen you in person I have so much love for you and I know when I do meet you that love will grow, and keep growing for the rest of eternity. I know you watch over Dad and I, and are excited to come to our little family. It may not be as good as being with Christ but we will try our hardest to make our home a temple for you. There will always be love in our home for you, you will never go without food, only if you dont eat it. I will try my hardest to teach you all those things you need to learn. To nurture you like only a mother can do. You will be the first, hopefully not the last. That makes you very special. You will be sort of like a guinea pig for me to test out the ropes of being a mother.
People always say that time flies when you have children and even, and it has already.Even though your not even born, it makes me so sad to think you will be gone in twenty short years or so to live your own life. It feels like just yesterday I found out I was pregnant and to thin I only have six or so weeks till you come. It has been such a fast year and I know every year from now on will be fast. you will be here soon, then out of nowhere you will start to walk, and go to preschool. One day I was folding 12 month old clothing, and I started to tear up thinking that one day you wont be small anymore and how that day will come so soon.
But on a lighter, funner note. We are going to have a blast for the rest of eternity. I will be the best mom I can be and let you eat dirt, and not be too tough or too soft. I will try not to be too protective over you and let you figure some stuff out on your own, with me at a safe distance watching you like a hawk. I will try to make you laugh everyday. I will kiss and hug you, and tell you "I love you" everyday. You are a blessing for James and I and we will treat you like the greatest blessing we will ever receive. Hopefully we can give you brothers and sisters for you to play with. And teach you the true principles of love and the the gospel.
You are the child that has made me a mother and even though I will hopefully have a lot of children, you are the very first and that makes you very special. I love you so much and can't wait to meet you. I have such high hopes for you. I cannot wait to see who you look like or for the first time you smile at me. Im excited to kiss your little toes and tickle your belly. You are a unique human being, there will never be anybody quite like you. Dad and I are funny, so we hope you will be funny to. hopefully you think we are funny.
At times I know you are going to hate us and be mad at us for not letting you do something or date someone, but you will come around eventually and know we were right, even if you never admit it. I'm excited, though its bitter sweet, for you to graduate college. Even if you dont go to college, I want you to do something you love and can fulfill your role as a mother or father to your children one day. Im excited for you to find an eternal companion who you can spend eternity with. I want you to find that kind of love that Dad and I share between us, a love that grows everyday. Even through the hard times you will turn to them and know they will be there for you always, to lift you up when you are sad, and get you out of the rut you may be in.
To close this letter I want to say to you again that I love you. Even when you uncomfortably kick my ribs or roll that cause me to wake up, I wouldn't trade any of that, if that meant not having you. You are an amazing baby and I can't wait to meet you face to face. I will try to be the best mother I can be for you. I love you so much and can't wait till you are here in my arms. Thank you for making me a mother.
Love Always Mom
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